So I woke up today with the "Next 30 Years" song in my head. I thought it was odd, then I realized, "Oh my god...I am turning 3O in July!"
Yeah, so that is happening.
I used to be excited when I thought about turning 30 (I know I'm strange) but now I am kind of freaking out. I never really had a life plan, and I realize that you can't plan on anything for certain, I just feel as though my life should be on a different course. Maybe its because I am attending college for the second time around, or because I lost my son, or just because everyone freaks out about the big 3- 0-. I am not sure but I am finding myself questioning everything right now. I hate not having control and getting older is definitely out of my range of control. So, all I can do is attempt to embrace it. Just let it happen and be at least a little excited about it like I always imagined I would.
I often still get mistaken me for a much younger person so I guess age is just a number. It won't stop me from continuing in whatever direction I choose and it won't change the way the world views me (especially if they don't know my real age). So what is the big deal? I don't know.
Well, I still have exactly 6 months until my birthday. In the meantime I am going to work on the things I can control (kind of) like my health and fitness, my studies, and my relationships with my loved ones. I will allow these to lead me into my 30s and let them define me instead of a number. (While still freaking out a little :)
Yeah, so that is happening.
I used to be excited when I thought about turning 30 (I know I'm strange) but now I am kind of freaking out. I never really had a life plan, and I realize that you can't plan on anything for certain, I just feel as though my life should be on a different course. Maybe its because I am attending college for the second time around, or because I lost my son, or just because everyone freaks out about the big 3- 0-. I am not sure but I am finding myself questioning everything right now. I hate not having control and getting older is definitely out of my range of control. So, all I can do is attempt to embrace it. Just let it happen and be at least a little excited about it like I always imagined I would.
I often still get mistaken me for a much younger person so I guess age is just a number. It won't stop me from continuing in whatever direction I choose and it won't change the way the world views me (especially if they don't know my real age). So what is the big deal? I don't know.
Well, I still have exactly 6 months until my birthday. In the meantime I am going to work on the things I can control (kind of) like my health and fitness, my studies, and my relationships with my loved ones. I will allow these to lead me into my 30s and let them define me instead of a number. (While still freaking out a little :)